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Not very profound

I feel like I haven't written in forever, which is weird, 'cause I've been writing pretty faithfully at least once a week, sometimes more, for a while.

 Here are my thoughts: my last few days have been kinda unproductive. Which hasn't been good for me. But I've been thinking about things.

 What used to bring me my amusement and pleasure has obviously got to change. Those things are no longer available to me. I can't go dancing all the time, there's next to no social life, and I don't get to see people very much (comparatively speaking) anymore. So I need new amusements, pastimes and happinesses. 

 Another thought: How glad I am that I am human and I can experience pain. Pain means there is or was love. I miss so many people so much more than I can say, but I'm glad I feel that pain instead of just not loving them. Under everything, under all the tears and pain and emptiness I sometimes undergo, I am glad I have a soft heart. I'm glad I love people, even when they bring me pain. 

 Random thought: All the money I have in the world is sitting on my desk. It is $54. It's weird that I'm looking at 100% of my funds.

 Also. Often I ignore people's texts and messages or neglect them on accident, but sometimes I ignore or neglect them on purpose, or I on purpose hide from people by making myself invisible on their chat lists. It's not because I'm mad or I don't love them or anything, I just need to not talk to people. I don't get it, but sometimes I can't even talk to those I love very much... I must just hide.

 In other news, I want to just spit love all over everyone in the whole world.
Kinda like this...
P.S. It may be gross, but this is one of my favorite pictures ever.
I feel like it describes a lot of aspects of my personality. ;)
Or like this.

 Have a beautiful day. I'm going to make something of myself.
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  1. Sariah FalesAugust 16, 2014 at 2:15 PM

    Chip, I just love you lots. *hugs* :)

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    1. CatherineAugust 16, 2014 at 8:44 PM

      Sariah, I just love you too. *Hugs also* I hope you're doing well. :)

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