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So you may or may not know what a redundant human being I can be sometimes. Some themes just keep playing so loudly and persistently in my inner ear, and my hope is that if I write it out, it will give me some peace. Sometimes it works. Sometimes it doesn't.

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I'm so excited for the rest of my life!! I know it's going to be anything but ordinary. I also know it's going to be anything but easy. But I have decided it's going to be anything but meaningless. And I'm going to be anything but tame. The path I'm going to take is anything but certain, but I'm anything but petrified. I'm going to be anything but static. It'll all be anything but bland. Others may be satisfied with a surface life, but mine will be anything but shallow. I'm not afraid of depths, whether they're depths of joy or pain or love or sorrow. Bring on the adventure!

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I'm so thankful for all the people that have made me who I am up until this point. And even though maybe I have a hard time communicating how much I care about people or how much I love them, and my words are vilely inadequate, and despite the fact that I'm struggling with showing affection even more than usual right now, I feel it at least as much as usual, if not more. In retrospect I can see so many reasons that the people I know have always been just what I needed. Yeah, I can't express it very well. I love humans. The end.

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The more I do as the Lord says, the happier I get. And also, sometimes "fake it 'til you make it" becomes the theme with things like humility and charity, but then it actually works: you start to notice an actual change in desires, not just behavior. You start doing it automatically. It's great.
The Lord looks out for His children. It's incredible. The more familiar you become with His dealings with His other children (reading the scriptures), the more apparent it becomes that He is *very* involved in your own life. And that is awesome. You just feel so unafraid. You realize that you are in a safe place, very much like the figurative hollow of His hand.

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