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Because you were curious

-How are you?

 -I am well, thanks.

 Once you start to say goodbye to things, you get past a certain point and all the goodbyes get easier. You are just anxious to cut all the ties and get OUT. I hit that point, I said my goodbyes, Brady nearly made me cry, and I got out of Rexburg. I safely, successfully completed navigation of an airport, by myself, with an absurd amount of luggage. Now I'm at my cousins' house. 

 It's been fun. The weird thing is that it feels like a dream--college feels like a dream, but so does this. And I had withdrawals from my student ward yesterday. 
Meh.

 But it's okay. I've determined that in order to stay alive over the coming months, I've got to have some ideas/goals/areas for improvement in mind.
So. I'm planning to...
-Study. I feel like I didn't get the education I really wanted while at school, so I'm going to see if I can get it at home. I've obviously got to figure out some way to get what I want/need; seeing if self-education is possible for me sounds like a pretty good start.

 -Piano. One of the things that depressed me most when I went to school is how my fingers eventually started feeling fail-tastic. I need to take piano again and get good.

 -Voice. Yes. Please. I want to take voice, really really bad. 

 -Language. I'm thinking Spanish, but if I get my mission call and I have to learn, like, Tagalog, I'm obviously going to start on that ASAP. 

 -Dance. I don't really know... if/where I'm going to be able to find dance lessons... but I really want to. I want to be incredible out on the dance floor. Mueheheh.

 -Take Care of Myself. I want to eat really healthy (smoothies, meat sandwiches, rice, pasta, fruit, veggies, hummus [merher Mandy :D] yogurt... healthy stuff. Healthy healthy stuff. Less sugar, less processed stuff, less packaged junk, etc.) and I want to exercise. I want to get fit. I'd just like to feel strong and healthy and know I'm taking care of my body from the inside out. 

 -Work. This isn't something I'm exactly dying to do, but it's necessary, sooo...

 -Last but not least, Prepare for mission!! Because I haven't been preparing as I should, and although I know nothing can adequately prepare me really, I should do everything I can.

 -In less-productive realms, I'd like to watch a season or two of some popular shows. (you're laughing at me, right at this moment. Stop it, ok? xD) i.e. Dr. Who, Psych, Sherlock... Those are pretty much it. I have a feeling Once upon a Time or Supernatural would pretty much eat my life (as if the others won't. Hah.)
It won't be too bad. Hopefully also I'll be able to find some friends to go adventuring with on at least a semi-regular basis. And I'd also like to take a road trip to see the Kids. We'll see. 

 It'll be okay. I hope it'll be really great. We'll see. Here goes.

 #LifeAtHome
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